tina 的个人资料┼♥Psychological Freak ♥┼...照片日志列表更多  |  工具 帮助 |
┼♥Psychological Freak ♥┼ [♥.Xx___EMOalways___xX.♥]Rock on ev'ryday with Musikontinue... |
|||||||||
5月14日 life make no sense"what am i doing? Nothing. what am i thinking? Nothing." i talked to myself when walkin in the darkness, music flowin in my head. i've been questioning myself what's wrong with me these days but i don't know the answer. this is the way i choose but not what i want. Life shouldn't be such a whore. why is it so hard to survive in my world but seems easy in others? why did i give myself so much pressure even i told myself i don't care? why am i still unhappy when i am living the way i thought was the easiest? i can't stand that the thoughts are pushing me into a deep well. a feeling been covered for a long time is going to burst out. but i can do nothing. can't say a word. can't think. can't find a way. can't dream. can't fight. all i got is music, which is the most important in my life. anything, anyone else becomes vague and meaningless. i stepped out the school gate. i was standing in the middle of the road watching cars passing by. Suddenly i was EAGER to escape. i wish i had the courage to go away alone to some completely new place. the eagerness was so strong but my feet can't move to the opposite direction. i was told i should go back to the dormitory by my will. adventure doesn't suit me. a sudden escape isn't what i likely do. on my way dorm, i kept thinking. it's a mess in mind. i thought my life is okay but turns out to be a huge lie! i told myself i was just searching but i don't even know what im searching for. i picked up the reading hobby thought it would bring me peace. however i've given up reading when i hadn't noticed yet. i remember i used to be energetic and passionate about life and future. now, every desire was put out, together with hopes and dreams. a 2-month peaceful life finally cut me. i couldn't help sobbing all the way. i didn't even go back into the dorm building. i tried to calm myself but every thoughs turned to more tears dropping down... i was scared by myself losing control. ... life make no sense. i hate myself 5月9日 我被V表扬了她表扬了我. V
4月25日 4月24日 雨当我突然意识到这是一种多么久违的感觉 那种温暖的幸福 好久都没有出现 在我以为他们不会再出现的时候 4月19日 4/18 重塑雕像的权利@YYT你能想象小小一间育音堂竟然装了615个活人吗？
昨晚和Roxanne去看重塑 比上周刺猬的500人还多 开场前我环顾四周方圆1米内没有外国人 这点很欣慰
我们本来站在左前方 暖场时被挤到中间 重塑一开始演 我就有被挤压的窒息感 好几次都差点崩溃到想死 不想pogo都不行 都是全自动 演出途中张海生都跑上来擦窗户上的水蒸气了 知道里面有多热了吧 汗顺着眼睛往嘴角流 胸前扣子都被挤开了 鞋带散了 后来终于挤到右边靠墙的角落 总算是个安全地带 可看到的全部是前方黑压压的人头 华东和刘敏在人头里若隐若现 于是我就闭着眼睛听 一晚上我只自动Pogo 了2首歌 boys in cage和最后一首 因为最后一首时YYT里的人口密度是最理想的状态 现场的音效太震撼了 后朋 华东的气场无比强大 刘敏冷艳的脸庞 台下疯成一片 欢呼声合唱声鼓掌声 嗨得都不知如何形容 大概是这样的： 刘敏 马晖 华东 众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众 众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众 众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众 众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众 众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众 众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众 众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众 众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众 众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众 众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众众 众众众众众众众众众众众众众众 调音台 最后从育音堂出来 第一次看到门口围着那么多人 Roxanne头发湿透 脑门呈大光明状 大多数人都狼狈不堪
  4月12日 Hedgehog@YYT.4/11事实上, 我觉得可能自己老了HIGH 不动了. 沙丁鱼罐头一样的yyt, 我挤在人群里勉强能呼吸到稀薄的空气.
个子小, 根本看不到阿童木. 最后终于挤不动了, 乖乖退到最后吹吹空调. 就连<白日梦蓝> 和 <金色年华,无限伤感> 这两首 我都没进去POGO
但是这两首的时候,我听到一些中国孩子在合唱, 感动极了. 这些歌词 我想永远记住他们...
白日梦蓝/Blue Daydreaming
青春是青涩的年代
我明白，明天不会有色彩 社会是伤害的比赛 当我醒来时才明白 请你不要离开 这里胜似花开 没有人能够掩盖 梦境中的色彩 请你不要离开 这里胜似花开 没有人会去涂改 梦境中的色彩 头上蓝色时光流淌 空荡的世界沮丧 金色年华，无限伤感/ Golden Age, Infinite Sadness
翻过这一页是新的起点 下一个故事中没有黑夜 金色世界一望无际的麦田 这里的故事我还从未体验 纷繁世界被锁在里面 其实我们只是些忧郁青年 距离不远但也从未相见 关于理想的故事已不再有感觉 拜拜，挥手告别，不知何时还会再见面 拜拜，我会想念，所有欢乐已化作思念 |
|
||||||||
.jpg)
|
|
